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"They" are trying to stop the awakening and "We" are trying to start it. Only problem is that none of us know who "they" or "we" are. [R]

2 weeks agochindiroots posted submission on conspiracy.
Aug. 7, 2019

I hope that whomever has final control of all the pathways between my communication and its recipients that they are one of the "good" ones. Realistically, there are probably several forces in between me, the author, and the reader, whomever they are (Or 'It' Is.)

Perhaps I am being penny-wise and pound foolish, here, but I think the information war is now a very hot war, and this is not "always the state of being."

We have stepped through a particular veil of uncertainty in a digital age--because of technology, literally any reality can be faked, now, so no matter how paranoid one is, this must enter our collective calculus.

The mere fact of this capability doesn't mean there's a conspiracy, it would simply be unlikely that such capabilities wouldn't allow conspiracies.

"Knowing" that there "should" be a conspiracy, given all available information, it is logical to assume there *is* some kind of conspiracy going on that is manipulating all of us. The only problem is that once you get past a certain point of 'the intelligence game' you understand that there is infinite paranoia in a place called "chapel perilous" and whether it is something that looks like magic and spirituality or just simple human biology and psychology doesn't really matter.

Here we are, at this moment that I have been SCREAMING about to everyone around me for years, and I'm not holding anything back, even though MANY traps have been set for me.

In fact, right around the time I "met" Edward Snowden, my life started getting weird. I would have thought that this would be exactly the kind of place that might like to hear my story, but strangely, any time I try to tell my real name, I get down-voted to obscurity. You'll just have to do the 'research' yourself to find me, I guess. ::eyerollemoji:: I won't even bother linking to my edward snowden story because the digital autists 'round these parts don't allow for anything that appears to be self-promotion of one's blog or doxxing of one's self.

How is one supposed to blow the whistle when everyone has you on mute?

1 week, 6 days agochindiroots posted comment on conspiracy.
Aug. 7, 2019

Apologies in advance for the wall of text here, but I think it's important.

The question isn’t who or where, it’s why. Why is it that a significant portion of our population is hell-bent on enslaving the rest? What makes them different, how can we spot them and what can we do about it?

Any other layers that may or may not rule above these people (aliens, demons, whatever) are secondary in our initial quest to identify the first layer - the human layer. So this is our first job: to identify the human parasites. So, who are they? They are psychopaths, sociopaths or people with what is called Antisocial Personality Disorder. IMO, they are interchangeable. So let’s just call them psychopaths and get on with the next task at hand.

How do we identify them? You will not find the answers in the DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders). Why? Because this entire system was built by psychopaths and everyone at the very top of every important organization is one of them and they aren’t exactly going to show you their hand now are they? Okay, so what next? Other books, for a start. There are books written by psychopaths, themselves, (anonymously of course) to “explain” their disorder to the world - partly, because they enjoy it, and partly because they hope to earn sympathy so that when the gig is finally up, or when they are finally caught being exactly who they are, they can point to their sympathetic tale. This is one of those books: https://www.amazon.com/Confessions-Sociopath-Spent-Hiding-Plain/dp/0307956652

Will it be the whole 100% truth? No, but a picture will start to emerge.

The frightening truth is that people with this disorder lack empathy, compassion, guilt and a conscience. They don’t feel love for other people and the don’t feel love FROM other people. And they are, quite frankly, everywhere. Not all of them break all of the rules, but all of them break some of the rules some of the time. They are doctors, lawyers, bankers, policemen/women, teachers, principals, boy scout leaders, church leaders and so on. Most non-disordered people wouldn’t even recognize them in their own immediate family or friend groups. They may recognize aspects, such as narcissism (and not all narcissists are necessarily psychopaths, but I think that’s splitting hairs if said narcissists lack empathy, compassion, guilt and a conscience.) You get my drift.

Another frightening truth is that it takes most psychiatrists decades to even realize they are dealing with a psychopathic patient. Many psychiatrists don’t even believe it exists outside of the Hollywood serial killer version, which should tell you something about their training and how the psychopaths rule that field as well, and hide in the shadows.

In closing, we haven’t even gotten to the “identify” phase, which is what we all should be focusing on. I don’t know how to not turn this into a witch hunt, except to say that if you do identify them, the only safe thing to do at this time is to cease communication with them and avoid them as much as possible. Until we have a game plan that’s all we really can do. So, we should be sharing our stories on anonymous forums and boards with other people who have direct experience with it. This is what we can do now. In a few decades, we may have a better handle on it and may be able to intervene during early childhood and potentially correct the faulty wiring. Until then, be safe, be aware, and learn more.

I am a 23 year old male, and I have never had a girlfriend and I don't really have any friends. [R]

4 months, 1 week agofrozenturnstile posted submission on relationship_advice.
April 11, 2019

I'm a 23 year old guy, and I have never had a girlfriend and I don't really have any friends. I am really obsessed with my work (it's not work it's my biggest hobby) but I often feel very lonely and I get a bit sad and jealous of others with flourishing social lives. It sounds odd but I also don't really enjoy being around people and get bored, but I feel lonely. I think I have good social skills (when I want to) and I am in good shape, hygienic and dress decently and really love what I do. But I don't really connect to people and I don't know why.

I suppose I really want to be able to have people I enjoy being with and that enjoy being with me but I don't know what to do or why I don't have this.

4 months, 1 week agofrozenturnstile posted comment on relationship_advice.
April 11, 2019

Hm, could it be possible your personality would fall somewhere on the psychopath/sociopath spectrum?

I don't know that much about this topic, but as I understand it, one of the hallmarks is not feeling any (or much) empathy for others.

This book is written by a woman sociopath who is described as "a diagnosed sociopath and the founder of SociopathWorld. She is not a killer. Quite the contrary, she is an accomplished attorney and law professor who writes regularly for major law journals, donates 10 percent of her income to charity, and teaches Sunday school."

https://www.amazon.com/Confessions-Sociopath-Spent-Hiding-Plain/dp/0307956652

How to spot a psychopath: Jon Ronson at TEDxMarrakesh (2011) It's such a powerful brain anomaly that it's molded society all wrong. Capitalism, at its most ruthless, is a physical manifestation of psychopathy. [R]

5 months, 4 weeks agornaa49 posted submission on lectures.
Feb. 23, 2019
5 months, 4 weeks agornaa49 posted comment on lectures.
Feb. 23, 2019

I saw Ronson on C-SPAN back then, and it was like he was describing my brother. I read his book, and many others, and sooo many mysteries of my life were explained. It turns out my mother was a psychopath, and two of my siblings inherited it from her. Growing up in a family of psychopaths caused me to think they were the normal ones. And, so, I ended up marrying one. That's all in the past now.

My standard elevator talk about the danger of psychopaths:
(Recommended references are at the end.)

-- I am on a mission to expose the reality of psychopaths. Like David Vincent on the old TV show The Invaders, I know there are predators among us. Like on the show, many people I talk to can't fathom their existence.

-- The words psychopath and sociopath are synonymous today.
Disparate avenues of research came to be understood to have the same subject. (The so-called "official" name, anti-social personality disorder, in DSM-5 is so vague it's meaningless.) The originator of the clinical test for the condition prefers psychopath, and this is what I will use. Also, see the first paragraph of the fifth reference.

-- Psychopathy is a brain defect.
It is not treatable. Their brains are not wired to see humans as anything besides objects to exploit. Their amygdala, the area of the brain that processes emotions, does not function as in a normal brain. That is why they feel no emotions or empathy, although many learn to fake these when it benefits them. (There is also a controversial hypothesis that their mirror neurons are inoperative.) Surprisingly, at least to me, this defect comes with two effects:
1) Our mental states are completely hidden to them. They don't realize humans have minds and memories, hence their behavior of lying as easily as they breathe. Words have no meaning, and are simply tools to manipulate us automatons. Lies are throw-away and immediately forgotten. That's why they can make contradictory back-to-back statements without blinking an eye. It is sometimes said they are experts at reading people, but this is wrong. Instead, they are experts at putting people into situations with predictable reactions, a skill learned in childhood by "successful" psychopaths.
2) They don't experience time like us. There is no past or future, only the now. Hence, they have no thought of past actions, or concern for future consequences of current actions.

-- Not all narcissists are psychopaths, but all psychopaths are narcissistic.
This is easy to understand because, to themselves, they are the only conscious being on Earth. They are the only thing that really matters. Everything and everyone are merely props in their world.

-- Psychopaths are not crazy.
Imagine being fully rational but without the burden of emotions like guilt, remorse, or shame, and without the chains of ethics, morals, or compassion. ("burden" and "chains" would be their words, not mine. They would say, "Only chumps follow the rules or give a shit.") They know what they're doing, and have to avoid being caught. Hence, they do their thing secretively, and behind peoples' backs. They will also distract and deflect attention away from their actions by blaming others, "throwing grenades," sabotaging or otherwise neutralizing anyone they regard as threats, and sowing doubt and distrust. But to your face, many are charming and disarming. One fascinating trait is their insistence on never being wrong or held accountable. This is a ploy for avoiding suspicion, and this is when their lying becomes truly bewildering.

-- But psychopaths are lazy
To a psychopath, life is a con on humans. Their goal is to acquire whatever drives them with the least effort. They learn early how to appear productive and hard-working, but it is usually superficial. They are the ultimate brown-nosers and flatterers since this helps get ahead, disguise their actions, and defend against peers' accusations of misdeeds. They are notorious for taking credit for other people's work. My favorite ploy is when they have to produce results or make a decision for which they have no idea, they will temporize in an effort to appear smart, and try to bluff their way till a meeting ends. (This last one is not limited to psychopaths, of course. But they are consummate posers.)

-- Tips for identifying a psychopath
(These are meant to help cold-read a suspected psychopath, not to substitute for more extensive analysis, such as presented in the recommended readings. They are based on 50+ years of experience living intimately with psychopaths.)
- A psychopath flies blind when talking on a phone. Without a human present for cues, they tend to expose their thought processes, which can be jarring and disturbing, and a departure from their public persona.
- A psychopath does not cry (except for those who have learned to). A female psychopath once told me only wimps cry, to justify her never crying. Remember, no emotions, so no normal emotional responses.
- Psychopaths do not understand word play or figurative language, and they tend to take language literally. Communication often requires getting inside another's head to understand the words, and to read between the lines. Psychopaths are unable to do this.
- A psychopath manipulates by relying on our normal reactions to situations. They become confused and impotent when you react differently than they expect. For example, if they insult you to put you on the defensive, simply laugh back.
- Psychopaths are generally glib, using language (as untruthful as it is) to smoothly smother suspicion, and to control interactions. They aren't interested in what you have to say, and will dominate the time rather than yield in a conversation -- and risk exposing their inability to connect or care.
- Many people report a 1000-foot stare or "dead eyes" in a psychopath. This is not unexpected as they simply regard you as an object and not a person.

-- A psychopath uses tactics common to salespersons to manipulate you.
This is because these tactics work. This specific problem is not with psychopaths (or salespersons!), but with us. It's human nature to believe people are trustworthy, to believe flattery, to question our own eyes when presented with disturbing evidence -- in other words, to be easy marks.

-- It is estimated that at least 1 in 100 is a psychopath.
That's over 3 million in the US. The percentage is higher in certain fields, such as politics and finance, that attract the psychopath. Seemingly, they pursue the Big Three: money, power, sex. (Why? With no real connection to humankind, and devoid of morals, these are aspects of life that can be easily taken and enjoyed.) Educate yourself on psychopathy because the odds are good one or more of them are fucking up your life.

-- Here are some books I used on my journey to discovery of the malevolent influence of psychopaths in my own life.

Without Conscience: The Disturbing World of the Psychopaths Among Us
Snakes in Suits: When Psychopaths Go to Work
Confessions of a Sociopath: A Life Spent Hiding in Plain Sight
The Psychopath Test: A Journey Through the Madness Industry
The Inner World of the Psychopath: A definitive primer on the psychopathic personality
The Sociopath Next Door
The Wisdom of Psychopaths

The first two books are written by Dr. Robert Hare. He developed the clinical test for psychopathy that is the subject of the fourth book (which is an entertaining, yet disturbing, read).

Trump Believes Kushner Relationship with Saudi Crown Prince a Liability [R]

10 months agornaa49 posted submission on politics.
Oct. 20, 2018
10 months agornaa49 posted comment on politics.
Oct. 21, 2018

He's violent in the sense that he has no thought to the welfare of humans (they are only objects to him), thus he enables others to do violent acts. What I meant is that he, himself, doesn't shove the knife or pull the trigger. Hell, he can't even fire people in person.

It is widely misconceived that psychopaths are violent criminals. Only very few are. The vast majority hide in plain sight, conducting their cons and crimes with impunity because they know how to slither away.

Beer and Philosophy: Aesthetics and Solving Disputes Over Matters of Taste [R]

2 years, 1 month agoSnow_Mandalorian posted submission on philosophy.
June 29, 2017
2 years, 1 month agoSnow_Mandalorian posted on philosophy.
June 30, 2017

Yes, I agree with that.

My own view is shaped largely on introspection on my own recognition that I often fail to be motivated to act according to what I know is the right thing to thing to do, as well as autobiographical accounts of the lives of sociopaths and their descriptions of what kind of deliberation is happening inside their heads when they perform actions many of us find abhorrent.

I do recognize this is all contentious and there aren't clear answers in the internalism/externalism debate, but I responded the way I did given that your post was a bit ambiguous in describing sociopaths, since it made it sound like sociopaths don't really know right from wrong. Philosophically that may be right, but in the wider context of real world experience they do at least seem to have knowledge of right and wrong (even if we're using those terms in the "inverted commas" sense).

I'm still weary of the analogy though. If you're an externalist about these things then the sociopath:

-Possesses moral knowledge -Fails to be motivated to act in accordance to that knowledge.

In the Aesthetic realm there are two possibilities:

-Possesses aesthetic knowledge (i.e. "I know this is a good beer") -Fails to derive pleasure from it regardless.

Or

-Lacks aesthetic knowledge -Does not derive pleasure from the object as a result.

I think the distinction between motivation and the ability to derive pleasure are big enough to make analogies like these a bit unhelpful.

But I'm being nitpicky and we probably don't disagree on much.

Normalization of pedophilia? [R]

2 years, 7 months agowearstoomucheyeliner posted submission on GenderCritical.
Dec. 24, 2016

http://imgur.com/a/49WUk

It blows my mind that some people think being a pedophile is okay. He tried to call it something else to justify it, compare it to being homosexual, and then accuse those calling him out on it of being transphobic. There are others like this out there and it makes me so, so sick.

2 years, 7 months agowearstoomucheyeliner posted on GenderCritical.
Dec. 25, 2016

It's not really that far out there. Ever heard of this person?

https://www.amazon.com/Confessions-Sociopath-Spent-Hiding-Plain/dp/0307956652

I've been trying to wrap my head around the fact that there are thousands of rich, powerful men who fuck children. And I have a theory about why they do this. Note that explaining is NOT excusing. They are vile monsters who deserve to die. [R]

2 years, 8 months agonut_conspiracy_nut posted submission on conspiracy.
Dec. 9, 2016

Imagine that you are so wealthy and powerful that you can have anything you want, almost at the moment you want it. Any vacation, any food or drink, almost any possession. And that makes you happy for a while.

But what is more pleasurable than orgasm? Nothing. Children, to these sick fucks, are nothing more than a live, warm, flesh and blood masturbatory device. Better than any fleshlight. They don't have to make the effort they'd make with an adult woman, to listen to her, charm her, seduce her. They use these children like an object, utterly indifferent to their pain. It would be a rare female who wants to have sex three times a day, but these guys can have three orgasms a day if they want to. It is the ultimate perk for those who have everything else.

This is why it's so widespread. I always thought that pedophiles were rare and essentially mentally ill. Now I don't think so, except for their evil. It is the ultimate object lesson for "Absolute power corrupts absolutely."

Edit: Some of you raise good points about adult hookers, which they can easily afford. This is where the Satanic element must come in. A hooker is willing, not a victim. As Satanists they glory in hurting and defiling the innocent. A hooker would not qualify. They don't just want orgasms, they want to HURT somebody.

2 years, 8 months agonut_conspiracy_nut posted on conspiracy.
Dec. 10, 2016

https://www.amazon.com/Confessions-Sociopath-Spent-Hiding-Plain/dp/0307956652

> Imagine that you are so wealthy and powerful that you can have anything you want, almost at the moment you want it.

Yes, what I would do is fuck several voluptuous Colombian hookers with really nice tits and asses. Guess what? They will be over 18 (but younger than 25 :) ). No amount of wealth and power is going to make me get aroused by a small child.

I like wide feminine hips and good size melons.

I think you are correlating it wrong. These people are rich because either they rose up or their ancestors did. Either way, they are fucking smart and fucking psychopathic. They feel no empathy and no fear. If they did not have these traits, they would not be where they are now.

Christians who've witnessed angels or demons--what was your encounter like? [R]

3 years, 4 months agoApril 17, 2016

It sounds like a crazy question, but there's nothing in the Bible that says angels and demons ceased to be active after Bible times. I've heard stories about exorcisms and people seeing angels. A lot of it, of course, is just made up but I was wondering if anyone here has had a first-hand, honest experience with angels or demons. I think it would help increase our awareness of what's really going on around us.

3 years, 4 months ago[deleted] posted on Christianity.
April 17, 2016

They talk about it in this book. The passage on that topic is online, but I couldn't find it quickly. It's probably on this blog.

Confessions of a sociopath - References to mormonism and BYU [R]

3 years, 7 months agoNowFree-StillMe posted submission on exmormon.
Jan. 3, 2016
3 years, 7 months agoNowFree-StillMe posted on exmormon.
Jan. 3, 2016

Why don't I care about tragic events? [R]

3 years, 9 months agoNov. 14, 2015

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3 years, 9 months agocabarne4 posted on Advice.
Nov. 14, 2015

Nothing inherently wrong, just a non-normal way of thinking. I'm the same way, and completely understand where you're coming from.

What it boils down to is a lack of empathy. The term for this is "sociopath", but it has all kinds of negative connotations (mostly due to the fact that people confuse it with "psychopath"). It can be a blessing and a curse. On one hand, you don't feel sorry for people (whether close to you or total strangers) when they're going through rough times. On the other hand, you'll be the only one who's cool, calm and collected when shit's going down, and someone needs to act fast.

To give you an example, I was the first on scene to a bad car accident where a minivan full of kids rolled down a hill and went into a creek. Literally happened right in front of me. I stopped, ran down the hill, jumped in after the van, and pulled everyone out (with the help of one other person who stopped). Meanwhile, everyone else who had stopped was just standing on the side of the road, awe-struck, mouth agape, just sort of frozen in place. By not having empathy or emotions getting in the way, I was able to act quickly and prevent 3 little girls and their mom from drowning. (I have pictures I can send to back this up if need be).

I highly suggest you read the book "Confessions of a Sociopath".

http://www.amazon.com/Confessions-Sociopath-Spent-Hiding-Plain/dp/0307956652

the brutal doom fiasco [R]

4 years, 5 months agoMarch 5, 2015

this is kind of old news and it’s going to be a big wall of text, but i’m writing it anyway because, well, fuck you that’s why.

before i say anything bad about sgt. mark, i have to say that brutal doom is an awesome mod, probably the best doom modification i’ve ever seen and one of the most impressive mods i’ve seen for any game, for that matter. it completely overhauls and revitalizes every single aspect of the gameplay and turns a 20 old game into something that is even more detailed and technically impressive than a lot of new games that are coming out these days. a pretty amazing feat, you have to admit.

but the more i learn about sgt. mark, the more i get a strong sense that something is very off about this guy. when i played brutal doom, i didn’t really put much thought into it. i just figured the guy was some kind of game dev prodigy, who could very well be the next john romero or cliffy b. he’s a young guy and it’s rare for someone to have that kind of talent and ambition at his age. someone like that has a lot of potential in the games industry, they could really go places. but after hearing all kinds of awful things about him on the internet grapevine, i’m forced to reconsider.

from what i’ve learned, sgt. mark is a racist, misogynistic, egotistical neo-nazi, and quite possibly a full-blown sociopath. he has been banned from pretty much every doom-related forum for a number of different things, including but not limited to encouraging mentally-ill people to commit suicide (even providing links to instructions on how to do it), posting racist, sexist, and antisemitic comments on reddit and various forums, liking holocaust denial conspiracy videos on youtube, and generally just being a huge prick. the success of his mod has gone straight to his head and he cannot handle criticism of any kind and he violently lashes out as his own fans whenever they mention some bug or flaw or suggest some new feature. but the one that really freaked me out was when he decided to start incorporating actual internet gore pictures into his game, specifically the way he talked about it. here is the description of one of his youtube teasers for the real gore effects:

"Today I decided to take the gore of Brutal Doom to a whole new level! Through these two years of development, some gib sprites from Nashgore still remained, so, I decided to make whole new sprites to replace them. Where to find the material? Making fake wax pieces of gore myself and taking pics of it? No, but searching the internet for REAL gore, and trying to turn pieces of these pictures of REAL DEAD PEOPLE into sprites.

In this demostrative video you can see 3 pieces of REAL GORE: These pinky brain pieces at 00:07 were taken from a picture of a guy wich got his head ran over by a bus, and his brain splattered all over the street. The eye globe at 00:10 is taken from a guy that got his face shoot by a shotgun at point blank. These generic meat pieces flying at 01:10 are from a pic of a guy butchered by the mexican cartels.

I’m not going to remake ALL sprites using real gore because it takes a lot of time, and it takes hours searching for pictures with the gore in an useable condidtion and angle to be used, but if anybody knows where I can find a clear picture of exposed human entrails, please send the link via PM”

i’m not the kind of person who is offended by video game violence - to me, it’s just cartoons. it’s a ridiculous, over-the-top fantasy. but i don’t think mark feels the same way. i think he might have some issues and i think he is somewhat aware of that too; he has been very diligent about deleting his own comments and censoring the disturbing and embarrassing things he has said on the internet, but as we all know, once something is on the internet, it’s there forever. a lot of people seem to see the internet as some kind of digital restroom stall, where you carve a bunch of offensive and hateful things all over the walls and nobody will ever know it was you. they could not be more wrong. and what amazes me the most is, sgt. mark is obviously a bright guy, modding and scripting a game engine and programming all this stuff - it doesn’t make sense that he could ever be this stupid.

after finding out all this stuff, it makes me rethink a lot of things about mark and his mod. sometimes what looks like ambition and talent can really just be nothing more than pure, unbridled obsession. and i guess any artist has a little bit of obsession - i don’t really believe in the idea of people being naturally talented. if someone is really good at something, it just means they were obsessed with it enough to keep doing it every day, for years and years, so they became good at it. so a little obsession can be a good thing. but mark takes it to an entirely different level. a guy who spends hours and hours, probably staying up all night, hand-drawing hundreds of unique death and gore animations, frame by frame - that by itself isn’t really that alarming, but combined with all the other things he’s done and his fetish-like descriptions of mutilated bodies, well, it’s just plain scary.

i hate to bring it to the subject of columbine because there has always been this weird connection between those two kids and things like video game violence and heavy metal music, which i feel is unjustified and stupid, but it’s hard to ignore the similarities between sgt. mark iv and eric harris. both of them were avid doom fans and created modifications for doom that added more gore to the game, both of them were known for going on insane rants about graphic violence in extreme detail, with an unsettlingly high amount of excitement about the subject, and both of them were known for being anti-semites and nazi sympathizers and misanthropes in general. the only difference is one of them shot up his school and killed a bunch of innocent people, and the other one hasn’t. at least not yet. i don’t think video games cause young impressionable people to become violent - i played doom when i was 5 years old and i’ve never been physically violent towards anyone in my life. i just think certain people who have issues tend to be very interested in things like that, much more interested than the average person.

there’s just something not right about this guy. i don’t really know if he’s a deranged psychopath or not, since it’s the internet and you can never really tell if someone is trolling or being serious. but at the very least, he’s definitely a fucking asshole. i honestly kind of feel bad for him, seeing him waste his talent like this. being really good at something is great and all, but it is equally important to know how to sell - to know how to talk to people. you can be the most talented, hard-working person in the world but if you’re a huge dick, nobody is going to be interested in dealing with you. especially when you go around telling women to make you sandwiches and telling depressed people how to kill themselves.

don't get me wrong, i'm not trying to warn anyone about the guy or tell people not to play his mod or anything like that. it's still a great mod and it's not like anyone needs my help in finding out that the creator is a dick, he's made it very obvious. it's just interesting to me - the psychology of people.

4 years, 3 months agodeathday posted on Doom.
May 11, 2015

Sociopathy is like an emotional handicap. We don't feel empathy or a lot of intense emotions that seem to guide everybody else's behavior. I don't have an ingrained moral code... but after spending many of my teenage years getting expelled from school and arrested I just realized that it would benefit me to act differently. So I happened to read some Ayn Rand around that time and she helped give me rational reasons to abide by a moral code. That doesn't mean I do it all the time, but at least I have ideals now.

As for my awareness: I have a bachelor's degree in Psychology, but more than that my various psychological and legal issues led to me seeing an endless amount of therapists & psychiatrists who all diagnosed me with anti-social personality disorder. That's the DSM term for sociopathy. Psychology professionals don't use 'sociopath' or 'psychopath' anymore. I also read an interesting book written by an anonymous sociopath that helped me gain a lot of perspective. There's a lot of behavior common to those with ASPD but it's by no means a mandate. Everybody chooses how to act and so I try to act morally. I might never do well in a relationship, however. Not long term.

Writing a crime fiction piece and coming to issues [R]

4 years, 9 months agoItsTheThunderdome posted submission on writing.
Nov. 15, 2014

Hello everyone,

So I've been studying the crime genre in literature lately and decided to put my hands in it as well. I've got a decent idea, characters are coming to life, and all is well.

But sometimes I feel like I'm writing, well, shit. It isn't of the literary genre and I'm not actually familiar with crime and criminals on a personal level. I feel like a bad liar. Does anyone have any experience with writing in a genre like this?

Thanks kindly

4 years, 9 months agoItsTheThunderdome posted on writing.
Nov. 16, 2014

There are plenty of writer's resources out there written by inmates and sociopaths and psychopaths and records of serial killers and just fascinating cases. You can find plenty of books on this by just checking the "social science" or "mental health" section of a bookstore.
For instance, I'm reading a book called "Confessions of a Sociopath". It's enlightening.